Even though that was the last episode of Chuck, it couldn’t have been more perfect. I am actually happy.
I was thinking something like; Chuck is forced to let Sarah go or live it all over in a sort of depressed way because Sarah forgot it all, completely, and it would end really, really sad. But it didn’t!! I think I took that quote by Yvonne way too far; reading it over and over and playing horrible and heartbreaking episodes on replay on my mind.
But although 5.12 and 5.13 was heartbreaking, tearjerking and made me sit there and cry and shake and dry my nose through one hour and a half, I was satisfied. In the end, anyway, I just sat there and smiled and cried likewise. I had 500000 feelings at the end; joy, depression, hope, empathy-ishy feeling, satisfaction x infinite, loneliness and then the feeling of my heart being torn in two or million bits all the while I smiled.
Ok. So, this was the conversation between me, and my mother:
“I’m done now. It’s ok. mum.” While weeping the last tears of my eyes and cleaning my nose and smiling at my mother.
“Thanks. That was the worst thing I’ve ever heard. Every time I woke up, you dried your nose or cried.”
“I’m sorry. I’m done now.”
IT WAS THE WORST SHE’D HEARD. And she was home when I watched Supernatural’s(5.22) Swan Song (She wasn’t home when I watched The Man Who Would Be King though, thankfully).
But as I said. I was shaking and crying horribly. I am now sore and tired and my nose is still running. The corners and areas around my eyes are red and still a little wet. I cried my way through half a toilet paper - because when I say kleenex, I mean the toilet paper rolls - I always use them when I’m sick or something.
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But anyway. The episodes were amazing. It had all of those paralelles and the irony. And the Morgan quote with the Disney movies and the magic kiss. And the places they used to be.
Like when they visited their house and Sarah saw the carving. Chuck would never fight her. Sarah yelled at him to fight, but he just stood there because he wouldn’t. And he cried and begged her to come back (Though, I had wished for him to say her name — her real name Sam[antha?] Lisa).
And then, the beach. Of course. In pilot they sat there, on the beginning of their journey and Sarah asked Chuck to at least trust her because she wanted him to be safe. Now, Chuck told her about that and told Sarah to trust him on their next big adventure - whatever that might be; a normal life, or spy life or kids or dogs — just what they’d want.
And at the end. I never thought I could appreciate an ending like that - because I want an ending to be happy, concluding and yet also going forward not backward. But I adored the entire ending.
So, they were back at the beach but Chuck didn’t have to make Sarah fall in love again. They were always meant to be together, which we’ve seen in the past seasons too - before they admitted it, they thought about each other, tried and failed in other relathionships and the reason they broke up with every other person was the same; they knew they actually loved each other, not somebody else.
But they were at the beach and they had switched roles but, in the entire episode Morgan, Ellie and Awesome (and Casey even) had tried to get them back by making Sarah remember and seeing who Chuck was and falling in love again.
But when Chuck peacefully walked out on the beach, he made Sarah fall in love, again. And when Sarah asked him tell the stories, I think she remembered because she laughed and you can’t love/laugh or cry over characters or a story you don’t connect with in some sort of way. She got her memories back in some sort of a way because Chuck was with her in every one of them. He was her stabile and safe harbour who got the Sarah we knew back again.
Sarah was like us. We all watched Chuck and gradually fell in love with him. Sarah was one of us, when Chuck told his stories. Because Chuck has told us many, many stories for years (or just maybe a couple of months, for me - but anyway..) and we have fallen for him. And that was what Sarah did. By hearing the stories, she fell in love.
And she was back again, like that. They kissed, that magic kiss. It’t not the one that brings it all back - it’s the one that makes you long for more. You could see it. I was waiting to see them lock their lips around each other again, after the first. If it had just been one, it wouldn’t be the magic kind of kiss, but they kept on kissing and that was the one.
I just feel that the episode wasn’t a new start or missing pages. It was a continuing story. Just a concluding ending for us, but for Sarah and Chuck it wasn’t closing a book; just living there and now and looking forward to the future because they had already been in the past.
I know I don’t make sense. But this is how I see it.
